Sinking Deep

Being in this season of life has been teaching me many things. For one, it has shown my plainly where I have been placing my purpose all this while - in uni and in my identity as a student. Without these things, I suddenly find myself short of a sense of purpose, a sense of who I am. Nothing hits harder than the reality that I haven't been placing my purpose in Kingdom things, but in things of this world. I had thought of myself otherwise.

Coping with this sense of purposelessness has been difficult. To rediscovery who I really am - a child of God, and to marvel and be in awe of this status, which I have only seemingly known in theory. To be adopted into God's kingdom is so fantastic, but why do I feel almost indifferent when I think about it? O Lord, soften my heart and let the truth seep in!

Easter Camp is coming up in 2 days, and I'll be leading a group this year. I pray that God will make me humble again, and help me with all this turmoil that is in my heart. I pray for His Holy instruction for me as I lead, and help me to do what is right and pleasing in his sight. I pray for God to give me a heart that genuinely cares for the people I will be surrounded with at camp, and for the gift of self-forgetfulness as I fellowship with them. I pray for Godly conversations and good sharing among campers.

Good and upright is the Lord,

therefore he instructs sinners in the way.

He leads the humble in what is right,

and teaches the humble his way.

(Psalms 25:8-9)