this blog keeps getting forgotten. i guess that tends to happen when you keep a secret too well haha. but today i got reminded of it again, when david told us during our bs prep session that he started writing on a private blog he started. and this came to mind. so here i am, writing again, ever so sporadically.
we did the second study on ephesians tonight, in preparation for this friday's ocf bible study session. the topic was the apostle's prayer, and how paul prayed for the spirit of wisdom and revelation upon the church of ephesus. a verse in the passage also talked about the eyes of our hearts being enlightened. since preparing for the study today, i entertained thoughts about whether the eyes of my heart are truly open, and if what i know is more than just head knowledge. sometimes it seems difficult to look inward and to see, as if my vision is clouded by the desire to be doing the right things, to be in denial if i were doing anything wrongly or insufficiently. this has been a real struggle of mine, that i too often lie to myself and believe in those lies. i've always thought that i was strong-minded, but i don't always use that in the best ways. it is a double-edged sword that should be handled properly.
some people/things that i'm currently praying for:
1. for oscar to step up in leadership in ocf, for the spirit to empower him to take that step forward, and for his gifts to be used for the furtherance of His kingdom
2. for ashley - i don't know why but i've been having this nagging feeling that she is going through something but is not able to share or talk about it. i pray that i will be able to talk to her on a deeper level and find a place where we are both comfortable.
have also been really tired from internship/uni. having both of them concurrently is really, really tiring...
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